Heart-shaped black hole/ El gran vacío del Amor

So I got back from a party and I couldn't hold back the tears and the prayers as the Lord visited my heart with a revelation of the loneliness of the human heart. It was as though the Lord let me peek through a foggy window to behold an upsetting existence that stares back at Him all the time.  Being that I saw it so clearly, I set out to document the findings and journal my reaction. It seemed so pitiful and so obvious. 

Shades of Grace

"Fountain of Life"

"All of these ways are like drinking the smelly, stagnant, diseased water at the 
bottom of a broken cistern when we could be drinking from the springs of living water. Christian, how are you responding to these thirsts and hungers of life?" -Dr. Harold L. White 

Well, isn't this a lovely picture of dead things? I was playing the guitar and singing yesterday and these little verses came out: "You hedge me in, draw me away. You corner me in the wilderness, surrounded by the loneliness of many lovers that don't really satisfy, 'cause I'm Yours and only Yours." It's much nicer with music ; )  I know it's kinda awkward. Christmas just passed and New Year's right around the corner and here I am writing about wildernesses and many lovers, as if there wasn't anything else to say.... Maybe the topic's right on, actually. 

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry I don't visit you more often. I realize you may feel neglected at times. You have to understand something about me, I just don't like blogging for blogging's sake. I want to have a message worth writing about, that would lift someone's spirt, inspire them, you get me? Listen, there's a lot of useless information and social talk going around. If people are bored, there's plenty to be read out there for entertainment purposes. I don't like blabbing on and on about nothing.... And I don't need a fan base. I need to change lives, Let my light shine on someone's path! know what I mean?... I have good news! I have exciting blog topics coming up:

Ship o' Dreams

Ha ha! So I never thought this would happen to me! Last month I went on a free cruise with a beautiful ministry, http://jchealingministries.org/, Rev. Debra Hoskins. A blessing beyond my wildest dreams! Who would have told me I was going to be on the biggest ship in the world for 7 wonderful days... for Free!! It turns out a lady that had payed for her ticket was not able to attend at the last minute and I was handed over the precious opportunity. I met amazing, beautiful people in Jesus who were also part of the conference on the ship. We worshipped, fellowshipped and recreated in God's luscious nature: sun, beach and fun! We made stops at Haiti, Jamaica and Cozumel, Mexico. The food was glorious! The meetings were rapturous, and all together unforgettable!

Nina and I boarding the "Allure of Seas" ship in Haiti.

I even got to worship an hour before every morning and evening meeting, my favorite! God knows this is the one thing I could not take a vacation from, worshipping Him on some kind of instrument. My friend, Nina, (who also go to go for free!!) had taken her guitar. But on the first night, I wondered into the conference room early and found the piano. You see, I have an inner instrument-detection mechanism that leads me to the room with a lonely guitar or piano which beckons me to come and play it. It finds me every  time ; ) Been that way since I was small and could barely walk. So it was, the piano found me and I kept finding it every morning and night thereafter. Words not suffice to express what worshipping Jesus means to me! This time, on a big, big ship, in the middle of the ocean, among raving waves, enamored by ravishing sunrises and sunsets (how I love those!), islands and sunny beaches, the spacious, roaring nothingness under a clear, moon-light sky... something really special happened to me... and I'd like to tell you all about it ; )